Down Reg #1

Tomorrow we have our first Down Regulation scan following the start of our treatment (more dildocam!), and will find out if Keren has been responsive to the drugs we have been injecting on a daily basis.


Buserelin is used to prevent ovaries naturally producing eggs, and to temporarily put her body into a menopausal state. The side effects can be moderate to severe, but we have been incredibly lucky that the only things we have noticed is increased boob size!!
Once we get the nod, we add a second injection to our daily routine, which will stimulate the ovary follicles. Once they’re the right size, we are instructed on when to do the “trigger shot”. This will tell the ovaries to produce as many eggs as possible – it must be done at exactly the right time, else egg collection will not be successful!


We are so excited, however we are also incredibly anxious and scared about either outcome. It is, at the end of the day, a 50/50 gamble with a couple of thousand pounds and our future as a family.
If it works (🤞🏻), we have to very quickly learn how to look after an actual human being! Nappy changes, never sleeping, In The Night Garden, story times and more!
If it doesn’t work, we will have to be ready to deal with the crushing disappointment that it is the only go we get. Lesbian couples do not receive fertility funding by the NHS, and this is all the money we have in the world.

We will keep this updated after our appointments – keep your fingers crossed for us! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻


Pricks & Periods

We have spent the last month detoxing Keren’s body – she has made the ultimate sacrifice and consumed no caffeine or alcohol, and has popped more pills than the local retirement home. This has been our preparation in the run up to starting our daily Buserelin injections, which officially marks the start of our treatment. These injections have caused a whole heap on anxieties within the household – Keren is nervous about the hormones and possible changes in behavior/mood , whilst I am absolutely petrified of needles and administering the jabs. All puns aside, I’m really not great with pricks.

22752067_10159656888370045_1225483247_nWe went to our injection lesson at Care Fertility in Manchester last week, and as always we were blown away with the quality of care given. The Donations Team could tell that I was particularly uneasy, and really took their time to explain everything thoroughly and answered all of my stupid questions (“what will happen if I inject air??”). We both did some practice jabs into a fake piece of skin – just ‘pinch an inch and pop it in at a 90 degree angle’ – easy right? Right…


  • Buserelin will essentially start menopause – the clinic needs complete control over what Keren’s body is doing and when it is doing it, so both her and the recipient of our donor eggs will be doing this at the same time.
  • After approx 21 days, we will be called in for a ‘downreg’ scan to see if her body has successfully stopped natural cycle.
  • Once confirmed, we will have to inject Menopur in addition to the daily Buserelin. This is a stimulating drug that will prompt the ovaries to produce more eggs (the more we get, the better chance we have!)
  • Once this starts, everything is closely monitored, and we are given an exact time to administer one dose of Gonasi – this is the GO signal for the ovaries to start pumping those eggs out!!
  • 36 hours after this, Keren will be sedated and her eggs collected. Fertilization will be almost straight away, and transfer usually three days after.

We have been counting down to this weekend, where the injections start and after months of appointments, blood tests, internal scans and intense document signing, the process for making our baby actually starts! So, you can understand our frustration at not actually being able to start this weekend at all. Without wanting to discuss my wife’s body functions in too much detail, we have to start injecting on day one of her “cycle” – the first full day she is bleeding. Her periods are always so regimental – we could set our watches by when it starts and finishes – so the one time we actually want it on time, it is now three days late! ARRGH!

Progress report so far

I know that I haven’t written anything for a while, but I have been pretty damn busy with life. Sam and I are getting married in 45 days (not that we’re counting or anything) and i’m working on not morphing into a bridezilla! Alongside all of this we have been slowly chipping away at the IVF process and are finally in a place where things are starting to happen. I say finally like this has been going on a while – it’s only been a few months, but we are both very eager to get started…and very anxious.

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My head seems to be all over the place right now, I cannot wait to get married and start IVF, but planning it all simultaneously is a tad overwhelming. I wouldn’t change anything for the world though. Let me fill you in on all of the happenings since our appointment at Care.

After our information session, we were sent out all the information about me becoming an egg donor – a process that not only helps infertile couples, but also reduces the cost of our IVF treatment. We both are so grateful that we have the opportunity to use donated sperm to try and conceive a child, so it seems only right that we return the favour.

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It’s also been fascinating learning all about how egg and sperm donation is no longer anonymous. And any child that is brought into the world using my eggs will be able to contact me once they are 18. When we fill in all the forms we will be given the option to know whether any children have been conceived using my eggs, and i’m currently torn about whether I would want to know – but I guess there’s still time to think it over. I also love the idea that you can leave a letter or note of some sort, should my eggs create a child, which they can read at 16 and it’s nice to know that if we do have a child, they will have the option to learn a little about their father too.

The donation forms included paperwork to fill in all about my health and fitness, as well as an investigation into my family’s health. To complete this I had to find out the medical history of my dad and my mum and then both of their parents – including their age, any medical issues they had and if they had passed away, their age and cause of death. All rather morbid stuff, but that’s all filled in and fingers crossed everything is going well so far.

A week or so after I received a phone-call inviting Sam and I to an appointment with the donation team. During this appointment I will meeting the donation nurse to fill in legal parenthood consent forms, discuss donor sperm and egg donor protocol and fill in welfare of the child forms.

followed by a trans-vaginal ultrasound (daunting) to assess my pelvic anatomy, this will also include an antral follicle count of my ovaries – it’s all technical stuff! After this I will have blood tests and I guess, await the results.unnamed

All of the information we have received has been incredibly useful – and we both feel a lot more in the know about IVF, sperm and follicles. I know that Sam was feeling particularly anxious about her relationship to our (potential) baby. And it’s been relieving to know that, as we will be married when we begin the whole process, Sam will legally be the child’s parent and her name can go on the birth certificate. It’s so amazing that non-conventional families can now be accepted to a degree, as we both have so much love to give.

My appointment is in about three weeks. So i’ll keep you posted!

First experience of a fertility clinic

On Saturday, Sam and I had our first experience of a fertility clinic. Waking up filled with a mixture of excitement and anxiety, we made our way to Manchester. I downloaded a Disney soundtrack album to try and disperse our nervousness…apparently singing along to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious and Beyonce’s Diva whilst simultaneously eating Twiglets is the way to combat trepidation! During this road trip I foolishly decided to research a little more into how to qualify for IVF on the NHS and was really saddened to find out that we would have to self fund at least 6 sessions of IUI to be entitled to 1 attempt on the NHS. SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE!!!


Once we arrived at Care Fertility in Manchester we were greeted by a nurse and told to have a seat in the contemporary waiting room. Filled with magazines all about fertility, invitations to ‘The Fertility Show’ and anxious looking patients, I was instantly nervous again…Sam on the other hand was trying to figure out how to work the free coffee machine – nothing can keep her away from caffeine.


After waiting for what seemed like an eternity we were met by Lauren, a welcoming patient Liaison member of the team who would be talking us through our one-to-one. Lauren instantly put us both at ease, discussing the refurbishment that the building was undergoing and ensuring us that it was almost complete. She then led us into a private room and we all had a seat around a table. This I really liked! It wasn’t the formal affair that I was anticipating and I immediately felt relaxed.

For the next hour or so we all sat and talked through our possible options, with Lauren asking us what our expectations were and ensuring us that we were going the right way about things. Basically I am the one who’s planning on having the baby (Sam’s far too much of a wimp) and we agreed that the most viable option for us would be to try IVF. I’ve wanted to donate my eggs for a while now, to help out people who are having fertility issues. After all, who am I to expect to use someone else’s sperm and not return the favour? We spoke in length with Lauren about this, and after she told us that there was a huge waiting list for women needing eggs to start a family – due to lack of donations, Sam has also decided she would like to try and donate her eggs too.

Lauren talked us through the entire procedure! How my eggs would be collected, fertilized, monitored and hopefully inseminated. We learned about how the sperm donation works – the selection process and legalities, how I would be heavily sedated, side effects of each treatment, where the best place to buy medication is and then through the different add on treatments, their benefits and whether their was scientific evidence to back this up the benefits. My primary fear about this whole process was that we would be sat apposite a consultant who would try and up-sell treatments through exploiting our lack of knowledge. This wasn’t the case at all. Sam and I were given fabulously honest advice and then given the literature to back this up – just in case it was all too much to take in. It really was a valuable experience and we both left feeling confident in taking the next step together!


So what next? We are now waiting for forms from the donation teams for my egg sharing and Sam’s egg donation. From there we will then have a consultation and go onto the next stages! It’s all getting very real, scary and exciting now.


My next post will hopefully be all about the forms we receive from the donation team and what happens next!

For more information on the amazing Care Fertility click here